Monday, January 12, 2015

Waiting is the Worst


Monday morning I went in to the Orthopedic specialist to get my left leg checked. The off again, on again pain, needed to be checked.
We talked about the ever-changing symptoms, how much I improved while I was sick, and then he started squeezing my shin and calf. My calf was good, he couldn't make it hurt :)
However, one very tiny spot on the inside of left leg was very tender to the squeeze.
Apparently, I have a posterior shin splint - that's the exact spot that hurts

After he took and read the x-ray, he said he needed a bone scan to determine if I had a stress fracture causing my shin splint.

Doctor to Karen: "You need to take a full week off this week."
Karen, trying to hide a surge of overwhelming panic and sweating, ...okay, maybe I am exaggerating, but not much, "Why would I do that?! If doesn't even hurt that bad."
Doctor: "No matter what it is, rest will make it better."
Doctor: "You can pool run."
Karen: "I don't have access to a pool."
"You don't understand, I don't even want to take my drop back week." Followed by more panic...

We had a conversation about my plans for the next few months. I was not a good patient and wouldn't fully commit to rest this week. It's hard to make a decision like that with no concrete information. I need to know if it's truly a fracture, or just some pesky tissue inflammation, I hope I can get the scan scheduled soon, so I can move forward.

I will take my anti-inflammatory everyday, begrudgingly skip my daily runs this week, and see how I feel by Saturday, so I can decide if I am going to skip my long run.

I was cruising along so happily with this training, and I expected some aches and pains along the way, but the one thing I really don't want to do is hurt myself, and be out long term...ever.
I say this all the time...however, every fiber of my being stood on edge, ready to wadge a war with the doctor when he said chill out this week...

So how am I handling this? Like any rational person, I ate a bunch of chocolate and wrote this.

It's going to be a long week. Seriously...waiting is the worst.
I promise to return with something more cheery my next post, just needed to get this off my chest.

22 comments:

  1. That stinks! You deserve a sulk, but only a teeny-tiny one. Don't let it take control. Let's hope for the best...no stress fracture! And honestly, a few days rest won't hurt (ahem-says the runner who won't listen to her own advice!). I think I'll eat some chocolate too...whatever it takes to help a friend, right?

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    1. Thank you for letting me sulk a bit and the chocolate lol I took rest the week I was sick :( I guess I thought I had paid my rest dues.
      This is hard because it only hurts randomly. I felt like I could have run today for sure. I do hope I can get this scan done really soon, so I don't make my self crazy :/

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  2. Girl, I feel you.. If my doctor told me I couldn't run because there MIGHT be something wrong I would freak out! Hope you get it scanned soon and everything goes well. In meantime try doing other types of exercise so you don't go crazy :) or even just a daily walk or something - we don't want you to go mad, do we?;) keeping my fingers crossed for your scan! *big hugs*

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    1. Thanks! Tonight already feels like I've been off a week lol I did the cycle at the gym, I behaved :)

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  3. Oh bummer! never fun to hear you can't run for a week, but a week is better than months right? Hope the week off does wonders for your pain and you can get back at it!

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    1. A week is better, but I just lost a week at Christmas when I was sick. I am going to try and see how I feel :)

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  4. Oh no! It is never fun when the Dr tells you no more running. It is so frustrating and the last thing you want to do. I'm really sorry and I hope the scan brings good news!

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    1. Thanks! I am going to call tomorrow and see if we can get the scan scheduled!

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  5. Take the week off. Trust me on this one. If you don't address it now, it will be something bigger and you will be out for much longer. I wasn't excited to take my recent time off, but I knew addressing it sooner would lead to faster recovery. You can do it!! I completely empathize! :)

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    1. I am going to do my best to behave. This has been an annoying pain, it has been off and on again since Nov. but it has improved, especially during Christmas when I was sick. Now it will just randomly give out on me.

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  6. Now you listen to that Dr. It's always tough to get that news, you never want to hear it, but eventually the mind returns to reality. It's much better to tend to it now and eventually get back to running rather than do serious damage. Your doing the right thing even though it's tough.

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    1. I don't want to end up in a boot limping around but I really don't want to screw up my training this far in.

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  7. So sorry you're going through this! I can't imagine how tough it is to wait, that sucks.

    I agree with Richard, I know it sucks to take some time off, but the longer you put off tending to possible injuries, the worse they will get and the longer it will take to recover from them. Think of it like this: a week off now vs. a month off later down the road. I know it's tough but unfortunately these are the realities of being a runner. Injuries happen. You will not lose that much running fitness after one week off, and you are still 9 weeks out from your marathon so the timing could be a lot worse.

    I have my fingers crossed for you that the news is good!

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    1. Thanks Hanna :) I haven't really had anything take me for more than a few days. This is a new phase of running for me. I guess eventually all runners go though something, right.

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  8. Turn that frown upside down! Taking a week off from running will give your legs time to rest and recovery from the excellent training you've been doing. Plus one week is scientifically not long enough for you to lose your fitness so don't worry about that! Since this was a drop back week anyway, this really couldn't have come at a better time!

    Since you don't have access to a pool you can always do some intense workouts on the elliptical and put a lot of focus on strength training and core work as both of those things will only help you for the marathon!

    No worries, Karen! Glass half FULL not empty!

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  9. Ugh! I hope it's just shin splints and not a fracture! And that the rest helps! Take it! And skip that LR if you are still feeling crummy! Keep whining to use and we'll eat some chocolate, too! :)

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    1. I ate more chocolate first thing this morning LOL I have to stop now!!
      I am feeling better today, maybe it is just some irritated tissue....fingers crossed.

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  10. I am sorry you have to take a week off from running!!!! I am in the same boat! I am aiming to give myself TWO WEEKS off from running and anything high impact. I have my reasons which I am going explain in a post... but... in the meantime I am being creative with all the other stuff I can do!

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    1. If you feel you need it, it's good to take it and I know that...but I am so worried I won't make it to the marathon in March if I take anymore breaks. I hope you feel better after your break!
      I still don't have my appt. if I could just get it scheduled I could make a plan.
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