These are some of my real images from the scan - the dark spot is the fracture. It's in a low, vulnerable spot on my bone.
Each day the reality sinks in a little more...
Each time my hub and I have worked out the "what feels okay" list has been shrinking. I can't do the leg press, or calf machines I love, I can not do my sit ups on the incline bench - goodbye progress, hello belly flab, and I can't plank. Trying to put weight on my foot caused a sharp pain in my shin, so no planks. I haven't tried push ups, but I think it's safe to cross them off...it pains me to see my progress fade away.
Sunday, I did the awesome cycle with the big screen and all the different courses,
then I tried a stationary one for a half hour. My leg, which hasn't really hurt much in a few weeks (unless I put my weight on it just right) has been pulsing. I am beginning to wonder if the cycle is detrimental to my healing, or if my leg is still adjusting the weight of the boot. The first few days in the boot, both my knees were very sore and tender.
Since May 2013 - I have run at least 70 miles every month, a few months were higher, but never less.
How do you fill that void?
January 2013 - I started trying to run a few times a week and slowly increased my miles, by July 2013, I actually had lost four pounds. Running was the only thing that finally started nudging my scale down, and helped me to shed some inches.
After a few surgeries and several years of trying different hormone therapies, I was feeling awful because no matter what the doctor tried my blood pressure (with medication) stayed
in the danger zone. I had swelling in my joints, my exercise was constantly disrupted due to pain, and I went through a year long period where my shoulder was frozen; I couldn't even latch my own bra. I felt pretty depressed. Ultimately, I decided to get off all the meds, let my body level out, and let it land where it may and work from there. I just wanted to feel better.
After stopping all medicine and beginning to exercising regularly (because the pain and swelling got better when I stopped the medicine), I gained almost 30lbs. over a four month period. Initially I began to panic, since I have a history of eating very disordered, it had been about 20 years since I had dealt with any purging behaviors, but the weight gain had me worried.
2010, I was at the height of my misery with my weight, I started dieting and ramping up the exercise with minimal results. I was doing a lot of walk/running, I would run for periods of 30 seconds to a minute and maintain about a 13 - 13 half minute mile. In 2011, I started seeing an endocrinologist and was diagnosed with my slowing thyroid, but with my history of medication issues, she encouraged me to try to manage it with more weight training, increase my walk/run min. a mile speed, and a very low calorie diet. I have struggled staying on the diet long term.
All that leads to why I had very little confidence I would ever be able to run non-stop, but eventually it happened...and I felt .•´ ♥ ☆ ♥ `•.¸.•´ ♥ amazing!
I never wanted to stop having that feeling and now it's come to a crashing halt.
Running has been my hormone replacement, my anti-depressant, my weight control, my motivation, my companion, and sanity every week.
I don't even know what questions to ask this post, I just want to thank you all for your very kind words, encouragement, support, and virtual hugs!!!
I deeply appreciate each and every comment ♥ more than you can imagine.