I struggle with this.
It's nothing new, I've been squashing my inner voice for years, trying to replace it with happy stuff.
This topic produced some very honest and inspiring posts.
As I read through them, I started seeing my own lists of inadequacies grow in my head. Yes, that is a personal problem.
Sometimes a big thing, like injury, can really stir up self doubt and sadness, and cause you to question yourself. I have been working through this for months.
Sometimes small things can create quite the battle.
In the past month or so, I've gained some pounds, and no, it's not the good kind...it is, my pants are getting tighter, and my middle is getting thicker kind.
Pounds you can count on one hand may seem pretty insignificant, but I am 5' 2". It tends to all settle right in my middle. It makes it harder to run, it bothers me, it makes me less excited to wake up, get dressed, go out. I know in a blink it could be more, I have been there and done that. I had to shed a lot weight in my younger life. Even though I haven't moved the scale much the past few years, my weight training and running were helping me shed some inches. I have tried to keep my focus on getting stronger, and I eat pretty healthy a lot of the time, and I do log everything (thank you Loseit app)...but currently, I am losing ground a bit. Do I find it irritating that a few pounds can change how I feel about myself? Yes, I find it crazy even...but, it is honestly how I feel. Even at almost 50 years old, I still battle self esteem issues. I want to be the best me I can be.
I haven't really changed anything so I am not sure if it's lack of hormones, or lack of running regularly, it's probably a combination of both, but I am not giving up. I am not throwing up the white flag...health and fitness is an ongoing journey that has an ebb and flow. I don't have to feel perfect to be happy. I can be content while I continue to try to chip away at it.
I refuse to become a celery stalk eater. I will not over indulge in exercise. I refuse to get roped into unhealthy behaviors. I have collected the tools and knowledge I need to succeed. Emotions don't have to translate to bad choices.
My plan is to forge ahead, maintain balance, and believe I am enough.
Do you relate to any of this? or am I crazy? I am always okay with hearing honest opinions. ♡