Wednesday, July 1, 2015

My Runfessions



I'm linking up with Marcia's Healthy Slice for her monthly Runfessions post and linkup and I am late...no big surprise there....

Please stop by and read some other Runfessions!

I have quit running a handful of times this month. We had quite the heat spell all month long and I struggled. I apologize now for whining, and promise I will try to put this topic away after my runfessions.


My confidence in my running is teetering.



I am worried I will never run distance again.



Run buddy wants to sign up together for the Richmond Half 
in November. (the price increase happens again in July, so the pressures on). I also picked a January marathon I would like to (try) do.

I can't even imagine running for two plus hours right now, when 5K's are zapping me. 

Shoot, sometimes I want a walk break before I even hit a mile, that's when I know it's going to be a tough run...
I commented in my blog last week it was the laborious exertion draining me. I never really get a rhythm going, it's a mental battle almost the whole time I am running just to keep myself moving. 

Runner's high...oh, I neeed one! 


When I slow up I find I am just as drained 10:30, 10:45, it doesn't seem to matter. The past few mornings the temps cooled here a bit and my legs were just as stubborn. I feel like a newbie all over again.  

Wendy@TakingtheLongWayHome

left this comment on my blog last week, I printed it and taped it to my desk...I need it to get through July, August, and September...

"The humidity is a real humbler, when it comes to running. Last summer I ran my slowest half marathon ever in the heat and humidity and that race really sapped my confidence for Chicago! Think about the positives here--the humidity is actually helping you build endurance and your fall runs will be amazing. True story. Hang in there." 



I feel like my endurance is shot.  I don't even feel the same inside. I had more confidence when I came out of my boot and hadn't run for weeks...I thought I can still run a half, no problem...and I did, twice. My confidence goes down the tubes fast. Worst than my confidence, has been my fear about injury again, when it comes to distance running. 
I am going to have this remedied soon...
My little spot, otherwise known as my cracked tibia still makes itself known after I run. I feel a pinch here and there, sometimes an occasional ache, and it seriously annoys me that four months later I can still feel that spot. 

I have several things I have been working on the past few months because I know they contributed to my injury. 
Running form
Sleep
Problems identified in my blood work...

Example: my vitamin D was at 14, and my potassium was also low. I knew that wasn't healthy...but, did I consider not working out until I saw an improvement? Ain't nobody got time for that...and then I ended up in a boot for weeks...sigh. 

I saw my Endocrinologist last week and was pleased my vitamin D and other readings all improved some, and the biggie...she scheduled me for a bone density test. She said before I make any decisions about training for another half marathon, or even consider a marathon again, she wants me to know what I am dealing with...and I am grateful. 

No matter the outcome, I will be thankful to have something absolute in front of me.

Fingers crossed the outcome will tell me my bones are still strong...

If that is so, hopefully it will help me to ignore what is actually happening with my running right now, and my will confidence grow....like the Grinch's heart would be nice. 



 It started in low. Then it started to grow.
...and the minute his heart didn't feel quite so tight, He whizzed with his load through the bright morning light... Dr. Suess

I am going to keep plugging away at it and hope I adjust some..soon!

Do you feel like you adjust to the heat eventually? 

Does it seem crazy to sign up to run a half and a marathon when I can barely handle a 5K right now? 

What would you do? 

How do you keep your confidence strong? 

P.S. I have only done a few runs using the Galloway method so far this season. I have a fear if I fall back on that method for too many months, I will face an even longer transition time trying to lose the breaks when it cools.  
Justified fear? Opinions about it? 

Do you have a runfession? 

37 comments:

  1. 1. No, not really. But I guess I do, I'm not sure.. I try not to think too much about my times when it's crazy warm. My biggest issue is that I get insane headaches after every single run when it's warm.
    2. No, not at all. You did it not too long ago so I'm sure that once the heat falls you won't have any trouble running a half marathon :)! I would do it! :)

    Keeping my fingers crossed for your bone density test! :)

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    1. I hate headaches...I have been getting a slight headache afte my 10K runs, and I carry at least a liter of water in my pack. My run buddy gets migraines too, and that is miserable pain...
      Thanks, I hope the bone density turns out well :) Hopeful!

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  2. Wendy is right! I was complaining to my sister earlier this year, wondering how I was going to train in the summer heat for a marathon. She said I would buckle down and just do it. She was right. It's not glorious. Heck, I think I've accomplished an amazing thing when I go 2 - 2 1/2 miles without a stop. (Happy dance.) I would sign up for whatever race you want! It gives you A REASON to endure these summer runs.

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    1. I feel for you marathon training...if I had to do real long runs, I may have melt down a bit more :/
      You are so right a race is always good motivation to keep pushing on and I guess I need something to look forward to! Looking forward to the Princess Half sure helped me survive my time in the boot.
      Richmond is tricky though, last year was the coldest on record, but often it's humid, hot, or rainy that day...I guess I will just pray for cold like I did last year lol

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  3. I think you worry too much. Sometimes running is not fun and is hard. LISTEN to your body, take a break if you need to- running will always be there when you are ready for it! I think you should do to Galloway Method for the remainder of the summer and just not worry:) You will be able to run distance again and less stress will only help!

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    1. I do love that timer lol This is been a tough June for sure, I am trying not to worry, but hate that burnt out feeling when I barely run.
      I have considered a break...until October, but I would miss running too much lol

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  4. Trust me on this Karen: Running is a completely different animal in the heat than it is under normal conditions. I don't even look at pace when it's hot. Just covering the distance or being on my feet for a certain length of time suffice. I'd go ahead and sign up. Keep pushing through. Even if you're still not feeling great,you can just have fun with it. I've been struggling with super-low vitamin D for a few years now too. I just don't absorb it like I should. You'll feel SO much better when you get that number up. Thanks for linking up my friend!

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    1. I am going to try to keep on hanging in there! It is a different animal for sure. I guess I don't adsorb it well either, I am trying to be outside a bit more, and I tried a different supplement, apparently some are better than others.
      I love the link ups and enjoyed your post so much!

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  5. I don't think you're crazy at all, signing up for long distance races. Reevaluate your goals and do your long runs slow. Finishing them should be your goal. That will do wonders for your confidence.

    I'm flattered that you posted my response! <3

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  6. I don't think you're crazy at all, signing up for long distance races. Reevaluate your goals and do your long runs slow. Finishing them should be your goal. That will do wonders for your confidence.

    I'm flattered that you posted my response! <3

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    1. My head knows what you said is true, me heart needs to embrace it :) So I am going to read it a LOT!
      Thank for the words of wisdom!

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  7. Summer running is tough. It doesn't instill any confidence in pace or distance. That said, sticking in out all summer will pay off huge during fall training. I think you can totally do the half in the fall. Don't stress about pace now, just keep it slow and steady. You are so strong! :)

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    1. Thanks EB! It's hard to feel strong and sometimes it's hard to believe just because you did it before means you can do it again, but I am going to keep reading these comments as encouragement :)

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  8. I could have written these same runfessions. My runs are very very slow. I don't even look at my pace anymore. I think you need to sign up for a race. The endorphins do help speed. And running slower is better than not running at all. We know that all too well.

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    1. You are so right! Running some is better than not at all. I know that, but it an adjustment when all of sudden it's not as fun as it used to be. A lot of runfessions were about heat running, I guess it makes it tough on lots of us .

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  9. I think during tough weather we just have to push through, keeping in mind how much stronger it will make us in the long run! After running a lot of hot weather runs, I always feel like flying when the humidity & temps drop.

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    1. That's what I keep hoping will happen again! This Spring was so much fun, I was sad when it ended I guess.

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  10. I agree with what everyone said- running in the heat is a different animal! And it affects people differently. I was going to say do the treadmill BUT I remember you mentioning that it bothers you. You need some CONFIDENCE BOOSTING RUNS right now!

    I would say go ahead and sign up for the half as long as it is scheduled at a time when you know the weather is going to cool off for the race and your long runs, you know what I mean?

    I am hoping for good news for you on your bone test. Remember, you lift, so you have been doing your due diligence on keeping your bones strong!!

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    1. Even though my body feels crazy heavy in the heat, I am doing better as far feeling sick and nauseous like I used to get. I hope I can get through the summer and my body remembers how to go again. I keep thinking four months if a long time to just get by, I am afraid it will become a habit.
      Thanks, I will share whatever bone density news I get! I hope all the strength training helped.
      I think I am going to wait for my test results before I sign up, but I would hope in November I would get a decent day here.

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  11. Good news that your mineral and vitamin levels are improving - that's a start! I'd say to listen to your body, and make the decision to sign up for the next half and full based on how you feel as the summer progresses.

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    1. I keep hoping that as those numbers improve I will feel better! I do have less nausea this year so that is good :) I think the test will relieve a lot of anxiety for me.

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  12. Hoping for good results on your tests! Add me to the chorus about the heat: it is harder than usual, and honestly, it never will be as easy as running in cooler temps even when you're acclimated. But like Wendy said, it really will pay off come fall. "Train hard, race easy."

    One question: how frequently are you running these days? Part of the reason all of your short runs feel so draining, other than the heat, might be that your body just needs time to readjust and learn the distances again. Endurance is all about practice. The more you run those 3 and 4 milers, the easier they will become. No matter how much I'm running now, if I take a lot of time off or get out of a routine, I need to work to get back to where I was. The base I build doesn't stay forever. But it DOES come back, just be patient and hang in there! :)

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    1. Thanks Hanna :)
      I have been running 3 days a week and some weeks 4. I have been trying to get at lease one run that is 4 or 5 miles and my 10K in on Fridays. My others runs are usually only 5K's. I haven't started doing much back to back days yet and I wondering if that's what I need. It was feeling much easier in the Spring and I was really pushing my pace, which felt awesome! However, it was making my leg ache...I'd like to get back to 20 miles a week, but in June I only made that one week.
      I hope I get it back!

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  13. Maybe you need a break... you do so much, maybe your body needs a rest to build back up some distance?

    My doc is on me about my vitamin D - I always forget to take my supplements. I'd be the worst druggie in the world

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    1. I feel that way sometimes, I did take one week in June and took three rest days. It does help to alternate some weeks, I need an easier pace some weeks.
      Take that D! We need it stay strong :)

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  14. Once the temps get over 60, I really struggle.

    My problem areas are my hips & knees & yes, every little twinge can make you doubt yourself.

    I always lime to be signed up for the next half, even if it's months away lime it is right now - it keeps me running!

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    1. That's me too! I like it be under 60, it makes me smile :)
      I hate those darn aches and pains, I have been getting tighter than usual lately...sigh
      I agree it is good to have something to look forward to so we keep moving.

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  15. I don't think you are crazy either, it helps to have something on the horizon that will keep you motivated and moving. I hope you get all the answers you need to move forward with a training plan that will work for you. I wouldn't worry about leaning on the Galloway method too much, just be in the moment and listen to your body now so you don't pay for it more later :)

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    1. That's smart Christy! I have a time being in the moment, I am always about what if....or will I adjust...I am going to try to listen to my body a bit better and see how I do :)

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  16. Runfession: I have been reading and commenting on blogs for 1/2 hour, when I should be running. It is only getting warmer outside...I am a procrastinator.
    I sign up for a race, and get a beginner plan, and enjoy the first couple of weeks of easy, as your body readjusts back into running. I started at the very beginning of an 18 week plan, which required me to cut back on miles before building up, and it has been a great feeling.
    I hope your bone density test comes back with great results.

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    1. Thanks Cheryl :) I hope you got your run in!!
      I have a problem with procrastination too... it's just to easy LOL
      I am going to try a training team for long runs if I sign up and they start pretty low, so that is good advice I would probably keep doing more, but maybe I just need to drop it back and work up :)

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  17. Oh no, I am so sorry you are feeling like this. Although the heat doesn't bother me, I feel the same way about the injury. I don't know if I can even run anymore and I am afraid to try.

    I will definitely be starting over using the Galloway method when the time comes. I don't think that will hurt you at all, especially since you can adjust the time to fit your needs.

    I am in the exact same boat when it comes to signing up for races. I finished up the year with the ones I already signed up for and paid for (last year) but said I wouldn't do anymore until I got my injury under control. Well then wdw marathon opened and I knew I wanted to do it again for a redeeming run. Everyone told me I should be better by next January. I think they forgot that training starts much earlier though. I regret signing up now. I SO want to run Princess in Feb too but I know I shouldn't even think of signing up for that if i'm still feeling this way! Hang in there friend. You are not alone. ( sorry for the long comment). -M

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    1. Being out injured is so hard, it really does mess with your confidence and your willingness, I struggled with the why bother many times. I totally understand being afraid to try, there's so many unknowns and when you start again there will be more issues. It's very hard feeling so exhausted from a few miles when you used to run so much! I hate that part of trying to recover.
      I am still holding out hope that you will feel better by Sept. and be able to train in time for WDW! That is such a big fun event and hopefully you will feel better soon.
      It's funny, I don't know why I resist the Galloway method now, when I do runs with it I feel SO much better and it was a great tool for me when I transitioned out of the boot. It kept me from more injury for sure! I guess I just wanted to back to where I "was" so bad. Which seems really silly when I say it out loud. I would use 3 x 1 or 4 x 1, whatever works for you when you are ready and enjoy it, and hopefully it will get you back running and feeling well.
      I hate whining so much but it does help me to work through issues.
      It's especially hard with Disney races because you have to sign up so far out.
      I am sorry you regret signing up. You hang in there as well! and having you all to share with means a lot :) It helps us work stuff out!

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  18. The heat has just arrived here in Nova Scotia and it's beating me badly!!! You are not alone, not sure if that helps though. :S I just know that when the fall arrives my training usually peaks because of the cooler air and it isn't such a struggle to run. Training in the humidity is tough, real tough. Summer running is a beast!

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    1. It does help to know I am not alone :) I am having a time, heat is a beast for sure! This winter the snow was so bad, it was a terrible winter for running so I know that got old for everyone but I sure can't wait for those cooler temps.

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  19. I wouldn't worry about taking a break during the summer - maybe just a few more rest days a week. And I wouldn't worry about the pace. I know it's hard not to, but the heat really zaps most people - me included!

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    1. When I hear my experienced runners tell me that is does help! I think I may just drop back to three days a week running and do other cross training unless I get a break in the temps some. It does seem to drain me an abnormal amount.

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