As the highs kept coming, I started thinking I was over reacting to my foot issue. I kept telling myself, relax! My stress fracture last year (tibia) has plagued me with the worry bug, at every little ache and pulse.
I did make a podiatrist appointment in late December. At that point, I had missed some runs (November and December), and it worried me.
I had picked out a race.
I had a plan.
I just wanted a Doc to give me the official, it's okay to train.
I have felt better since the New Year started and thought I had taken enough time off to nip the problem. My doctor appointment isn't until January 20th, so I made the decision to proceed as if things were okay.
I had a hope this year would be different than last. I hadn't talked about it much because I was afraid to jinx myself.
I also had some other races I penciled into my calendar, if my doctor appointment went well.
Things came to a halt January 8th. Geesh! That didn't take long.
|My last run|
The last long run was a strange experience. I just had a few pinches that quickly went away, but somehow I just knew...something inside of me said you are done.
I had my little whining session in my head...
- I don't want to be the "injured" runner again
- I can't go through five or six weeks off again
- I don't want to be defeated
- I don't want to be the failure who just talks and never achieves
- I tried to rest when it hurt
- I tried to stretch more
- I have made improvements
- How the heck am I going to keep my weight under control
- I can not deal with losing all my fitness
- I may never restart this time
- Why can't my old bones cooperate with my heart
So currently, I am not running, but I have NO idea what is officially wrong, so let's just say I am on a break.
I really don't want to be "injured" again.
I am registered for a February (28th) half marathon. I intend to make it to the start line if at all possible. I am saddened to think I won't be in great racing shape.
I don't have a close affordable pool option. Last year I had a medical membership, but it wasn't close to home, so I will be relying on the cycle mostly, and of course I will weight train.
The foot pain has been moving around and hurting in different places the past few months. As soon as I get rid of one pain, some new area hurts. The current pain is mostly in my toes...so strange.
Should I have taken more time off in December...probably. Would things be different? I don't know. I had about 18 runless days in December, but I also had that March marathon goal in my heart.
I didn't really want to do foot pics, but just to show you the swelling...it's nothing too crazy, but the left is puffier (toes) than the right for sure.
The pain is mostly where I am pointing.
I am committed to no impact until my dr. appt. on Jan. 20th for sure. I am very curious to see what the doc says.
I debated, many times, whether I should post about this or just stay silent for a few weeks, but this is my journey. This is my current...
My heart has goals, things I want to do...
My body says, be a five mile runner around the neighborhood...
I am just trying to weed through it...learn from it.
Since I started running, I always pictured myself completing a marathon before I turned 50.
I turn 50 in August...it is highly likely, I'll still only be "half crazy" and maybe that is just fine. I don't know...
Some part of me thinks maybe it is silly to try to hang on to his marathon goal...
I am not sure what I will do when I feel better.
- Be really conservative this year...so I can run happy?
- Accept my limits?
- Try again?
Anyway, for now, I am on a break, cycling in VA.
What is your current?
How is your running going so far in 2016? ( I still like to talk running and hear about it!!)
How many years did you run before you completed a marathon?