I'm linking up with Marcia's Healthy Slice for her monthly Runfessions post and linkup and I am late...no big surprise there....
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I have quit running a handful of times this month. We had quite the heat spell all month long and I struggled. I apologize now for whining, and promise I will try to put this topic away after my runfessions.
My confidence in my running is teetering.
I am worried I will never run distance again.
Run buddy wants to sign up together for the Richmond Half in November. (the price increase happens again in July, so the pressures on). I also picked a January marathon I would like to (try) do.
I can't even imagine running for two plus hours right now, when 5K's are zapping me.
Shoot, sometimes I want a walk break before I even hit a mile, that's when I know it's going to be a tough run...
I commented in my blog last week it was the laborious exertion draining me. I never really get a rhythm going, it's a mental battle almost the whole time I am running just to keep myself moving.
Runner's high...oh, I neeed one!
When I slow up I find I am just as drained 10:30, 10:45, it doesn't seem to matter. The past few mornings the temps cooled here a bit and my legs were just as stubborn. I feel like a newbie all over again.
left this comment on my blog last week, I printed it and taped it to my desk...I need it to get through July, August, and September...
"The humidity is a real humbler, when it comes to running. Last summer I ran my slowest half marathon ever in the heat and humidity and that race really sapped my confidence for Chicago! Think about the positives here--the humidity is actually helping you build endurance and your fall runs will be amazing. True story. Hang in there."
I feel like my endurance is shot. I don't even feel the same inside. I had more confidence when I came out of my boot and hadn't run for weeks...I thought I can still run a half, no problem...and I did, twice. My confidence goes down the tubes fast. Worst than my confidence, has been my fear about injury again, when it comes to distance running.
I am going to have this remedied soon...
My little spot, otherwise known as my cracked tibia still makes itself known after I run. I feel a pinch here and there, sometimes an occasional ache, and it seriously annoys me that four months later I can still feel that spot.
I have several things I have been working on the past few months because I know they contributed to my injury.
Problems identified in my blood work...
Example: my vitamin D was at 14, and my potassium was also low. I knew that wasn't healthy...but, did I consider not working out until I saw an improvement? Ain't nobody got time for that...and then I ended up in a boot for weeks...sigh.
I saw my Endocrinologist last week and was pleased my vitamin D and other readings all improved some, and the biggie...she scheduled me for a bone density test. She said before I make any decisions about training for another half marathon, or even consider a marathon again, she wants me to know what I am dealing with...and I am grateful.
No matter the outcome, I will be thankful to have something absolute in front of me.
Fingers crossed the outcome will tell me my bones are still strong...
If that is so, hopefully it will help me to ignore what is actually happening with my running right now, and my will confidence grow....like the Grinch's heart would be nice.
It started in low. Then it started to grow.
...and the minute his heart didn't feel quite so tight, He whizzed with his load through the bright morning light... Dr. Suess
I am going to keep plugging away at it and hope I adjust some..soon!
Do you feel like you adjust to the heat eventually?
Does it seem crazy to sign up to run a half and a marathon when I can barely handle a 5K right now?
What would you do?
How do you keep your confidence strong?
P.S. I have only done a few runs using the Galloway method so far this season. I have a fear if I fall back on that method for too many months, I will face an even longer transition time trying to lose the breaks when it cools.
Justified fear? Opinions about it?
Do you have a runfession?