I was pushing out some good workouts throughout June and July. Five or six days a week, alternating runs and weight sessions, and then the aches and pains started adding up...sigh... my right foot, my shoulders, my knees, my hamstrings...argghh! I get stressed when I start feeling like that. I don't like muddling through my workouts, I want to feel strong!
Sometimes I think I need a new body to go with my heart...
I want to push hard
I like to push hard
but my body doesn't get the message sometimes
So, for two weeks I fell back to my life plan which is four active days a week. I still manged to get 20 miles running mileage one week and 17.5 miles the second week of "rest", and have productive weight sessions, so it's all good, I guess.
The full rest days cure the aches and pains. I have to work within realistic limits I guess.
I have been at the PT's office several times in the past few weeks.
Hamstrings - improving check :)
The simple changes in stretching have helped.
The pains and niggles the were becoming constant in my shin and knees are lessening.
Shoulders - not much is changing.
My right hand has been going numb when I run, and as he works on my shoulder it will improve a little and as soon as I lift, the pain creeps back in. The popping sensation is happening in both shoulders and even with rest, it continues to make itself known. The heavier I lift, the worse it pops and tugs...
No surprise, Devin, my PT, says, "Why do you need to go THAT heavy with the weight. Be happy where you are."
Dang, I wanted a different answer.
I am kind of on a mission, you know?!
I am hopeful if I go lighter on the shoulder work for a few more weeks, I will be able to get back to trying to, pick heavy things up and put heavy things down.
Getting stronger replaced being "thin" in my life.
I can't let that go.
I didn't have the healthiest beginnings.
The fear is real...
Bones are living tissue and during critical growing years, I was a mess. I wonder all the time, am I going to pay for it now as I age.
I still want to do be able to do a dang pull up...
I have gained some muscle along the way, but it's usually remains hidden under a layer of stuff I seem to be unable to permanently shed. I wonder if those last few pounds are really worth it?
Have I mentioned a slow thyroid sucks!?
More often than not, I just try to eat healthy, enjoy treats if I want them, and track everything to make sure I am not fooling myself.
To lose I have to cut down to about 1100 calories, it's all Endocrinologist approved, but it's not fun.
You know several times in the past year I have been at my goal weight. I will feel motivated, cut my calories, lose it, but the minute I start to live life like a "normal" person, and not stay at such a stringent number I go right back to where I am now.
About 6 lbs. over my goal weight.
There's part of me that would actually like to look stronger, and the part of me that likes to have chips, salsa, and the margarita. I can't deal with being disciplined to the point of miserable. I wasted enough of my life on that.
I think I am going to have to embrace my rolls.
Trying to find that balance between obtaining a goal, and just enjoying life, can be a challenge.I think the scale, and the aches and pains for a few weeks, were a bit much at once. It got me into a little funk, but I will bust through.
I always do.
I feel thisclose to letting go of that "goal weight".
I'm asking all the questions today...and as always, please share your tips and wisdom :)
Do you have a hard time finding balance between being healthy and just enjoying life?
Do you ever go through funks like this?
Have a goal weight where you feel happy?
Ever worry about how your past will impact your current health?
Feel like you had a pretty healthy childhood?
Are you lucky enough to scratch your head and wonder what the heck I am talking about it?