Sadly, not in this post.
I have a little cloud following me today.
I am still feeling a bit bewildered from my Doctor visit today. I was not prepared to hear how absolute he was. Basically, I was told I was at the end of the road with running.
After x-rays and tapping some vibrating thing all over my foot, he was shaking his head and asked,
"What other activities do you like?"
I told him I really just wanted to know long I needed to be off of it...I was already cycling a lot right now, I have a race in February, blah, blah, blah...
His next statement:
Take up swimming.
Me: No, thanks, I will just cycle till I can get back to running.
You really need to take up swimming.
Tissue just does not magically repair when you are older.
Your toe ligaments are damaged.
This may never get much better than this.
I started with but, but, but, but
and he stopped me every time...
That is nice you have friends who run and are in their 60's, that is not going to be realistic for you.
Your plantar plate is damaged.
Take up swimming.
Do you enjoy walking, because if you keep trying to run, you won't even enjoy walking one day.
but, but, but
You would have been lucky if it was a stress fracture.
This isn't as easy to fix.
My brain started picturing the little old folks who face a 20 minute journey just trying to cross a parking lot; you know, the poor folks who can barely shuffle to the mailbox. They always hurt my heart, it just pierces me a bit when I see them.
Are you telling me that is where I am headed?!
Ummm, Doc this isn't going like I planned at all.
He kept talking about how adapting my activities is "my best course of action"
These bodies are not made to last forever.
Are you sure you don't like swimming? (he must love swimming!)
No Doc. Swimming is really not my thing...
He said I need orthodics to off set the weight and it will help.
I told him I tried that years ago when my heel spurs were diagnosed, and it didn't work. He said inserts are better now, and they would keep thinning and molding, until they feel good in my shoes.
According to him, orthodics will eventually make me feel like I can run short distances, but if I do it will cause more damage, so stick to walking.
Orthodics are not covered by insurance. They are $300
I am so torn. That is a lot of expense to find out it doesn't work or change the situation for me.
Anyone use these molded delights?
After I left, I had a little moment, I just couldn't get it together. I thought this is ridiculous...he just told me I may never feel a huge improvement from the pain I feel right now.
Is that even possible?
I went and got an Einstein's bagel and cup of coffee. I needed comfort food! As upset as I was, I didn't cave and have a diet soda. Trust me, I was tempted.
I was so grateful Holly (❤ thank you) checked on me. I shared my disbelief about my odd experience...I told her felt like I was being given the, you are terminal speech...just so absolute. I know dramatic right! LOL, Seriously. I am not dying, and I'll be okay, but, it was just how it hit me today.
I don't want you to come here and feel bad, I hate doing these kind of posts!
I went back to work and started calling all over trying to see another Doctor.
March was the earliest since I am a "new" patient. That is too long, I tried begging on one call, no luck. SO, I called my sports medicine clinic to see the same Doc who treated my stress fracture, so I can get a second opinion. I still have to wait weeks to see him.
So in summary:
I am on a break.
I have plantar plate damage. Doc also used the word, degeneration.
I have dislocated toe ligaments. My bones are all looking fine, but my toes are not on straight.
The toes being out of line put pressure on the damaged area and hinder healing.
The doc placed a pad under the arch of the foot area and it seems to help.
I am trying to decide what to do about the Orthodics.
Please share your experience if you have a set.
I hate waiting until Feb. 18th to see my Sports Med Doc (so darn long)
I would much rather be telling you about what I am training for next...
I will be hanging out here Googling remedies and advice.
I have already buddy taped my own toes and they feel delightful.
Run a mile for me!